Well I haven’t written much lately because I have been so busy, but that doesn’t mean I haven’t had tons to write about – because I do! I just don’t really know where to start. (Should I talk about God, starting nonprofit, starting new business, making changes, family, raising a teenage girl, having my mom live with me, volunteering, or should I just start with me…it is time for self-reflection.) So here I go…
I have made a lot of changes in my life this year and I feel so blessed! My work is fun and I feel like I am making a difference and really helping others. You see – I am pursuing my passion and God has been my guide through all of it! When you choose to TRUST God – he just makes things so clear. I always tried to control things but when I finally turned to him and let him have control – things are so much better!
I feel good – that is strange for me to say because I have so many health issues. Last year about this time – I honestly felt like I only had a few months to live. I was stressed, depressed and literally hurt all over. I thought I had a terrible illness – cancer or something. Have you ever felt that way? Luckily, I have made changes in my life and I have more energy, feel better, sleep better and am not stressed. What a difference that is… Now, I really want to lose weight but this is a WAR that I struggle with daily. I have started working out at least two days a week and I enjoy that and I have done pretty good with that. I am getting stronger and more flexible. My real problem – the Food.
Food stresses me out. I love food. I love all the herbs, nuts, meats, veggies, fruits…not cakes or chips or anything like that – not even bread – so what is the problem? My problem – I like convenience – does anyone else deal with this issue – I NEED HELP! I work a lot and volunteer a lot and sometime I do not have time to determine what to eat; so I run through the drive through and grab food for my family. We eat out a lot – ALOT. I know that is a big issue. I have bought those trendy trays so that I can prepare my food ahead of time but seriously I am not excited about that. I really don’t want to eat the same meal every day – how boring is that. I get tired of chicken done forty-nine ways. It is still chicken…. BORING!!! You see I like Pasta because you can prepare it 49 ways and it taste different every time – oh and it takes 10 minutes. So I have diagnosed my problem with food – I need food that is convenient – quick to fix – healthy – without being BORING!
I truly appreciate different tastes and my palette is gourmet cuisine! I love the perfect cheese on an oat cracker drizzle with a little honey and then followed by a fig. Yes, that is what I’m talking about. I love the deliciousness of mixing foods and flavors together to find that perfect combination. Oh the taste- I roll my eyes just thinking of the surprise of sweet, crunchy, tasty amazing treat. Sorry – got distracted for a minute! I need help!
What do you eat? How do you not get bored? How can I win this WAR? I would just take a win of a battle right now. I am so frustrated with myself. Why is this so hard? I want it but I don’t want to work for it – that is not who I am except where food is concerned. How can it have such a hold on me?
Please share with me today – I need to hear from my friends – heck even my enemies. I ask selfishly for prayers as I continue my journey. Maybe we can do this together.
The Plump Lady – Leigh Christian
Jeremiah 29:11New International Version (NIV) For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a fut