Journal of a Plump Lady

plumpladyWell I haven’t written much lately because I have been so busy, but that doesn’t mean I haven’t had tons to write about – because I do!  I just don’t really know where to start.  (Should I talk about God, starting nonprofit, starting new business, making changes, family, raising a teenage girl, having my mom live with me, volunteering, or should I just start with me…it is time for self-reflection.)  So here I go…

I have made a lot of changes in my life this year and I feel so blessed!  My work is fun and I feel like I am making a difference and really helping others.  You see – I am pursuing my passion and God has been my guide through all of it!  When you choose to TRUST God – he just makes things so clear.  I always tried to control things but when I finally turned to him and let him have control – things are so much better!

I feel good – that is strange for me to say because I have so many health issues.  Last year about this time – I honestly felt like I only had a few months to live.  I was stressed, depressed and literally hurt all over.  I thought I had a terrible illness – cancer or something.  Have you ever felt that way?  Luckily, I have made changes in my life and I have more energy, feel better, sleep better and am not stressed.  What a difference that is… Now, I really want to lose weight but this is a WAR that I struggle with daily.  I have started working out at least two days a week and I enjoy that and I have done pretty good with that.  I am getting stronger and more flexible.  My real problem – the Food.

Food stresses me out.  I love food.  I love all the herbs, nuts, meats, veggies, fruits…not cakes or chips or anything like that – not even bread – so what is the problem?  My problem – I like convenience – does anyone else deal with this issue – I NEED HELP!  I work a lot and volunteer a lot and sometime I do not have time to determine what to eat; so I run through the drive through and grab food for my family.  We eat out a lot – ALOT.  I know that is a big issue.  I have bought those trendy trays so that I can prepare my food ahead of time but seriously I am not excited about that.  I really don’t want to eat the same meal every day – how boring is that.  I get tired of chicken done forty-nine ways.  It is still chicken…. BORING!!!  You see I like Pasta because you can prepare it 49 ways and it taste different every time – oh and it takes 10 minutes.  So I have diagnosed my problem with food – I need food that is convenient – quick to fix – healthy – without being BORING!

I truly appreciate different tastes and my palette is gourmet cuisine!  I love the perfect cheese on an oat cracker drizzle with a little honey and then followed by a fig.  Yes, that is what I’m talking about.  I love the deliciousness of mixing foods and flavors together to find that perfect combination.  Oh the taste- I roll my eyes just thinking of the surprise of sweet, crunchy, tasty amazing treat.  Sorry – got distracted for a minute!  I need help!

What do you eat?  How do you not get bored?  How can I win this WAR?  I would just take a win of a battle right now.  I am so frustrated with myself.  Why is this so hard?  I want it but I don’t want to work for it – that is not who I am except where food is concerned.  How can it have such a hold on me?

Please share with me today – I need to hear from my friends – heck even my enemies.  I ask selfishly for prayers as I continue my journey.  Maybe we can do this together.

The Plump Lady – Leigh Christian

Jeremiah 29:11New International Version (NIV) For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a fut


Chronic Illness…Unspeakable Pain

POTSI have had to learn some new words recently…Dysautonomia and Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS for short). You may say that you have never heard of this – it is because it is a chronic illness that is not diagnosed very often. My daughter, Katy has had severe illnesses since second grade – she had stomach pains, cramps, migraines, sleeplessness, body aches, severe anxiety, shortness of breath, chronic fatigue, blurred vision, large pupils, fast heart rate, weakness, dizziness, brain fog & lack of concentration or memory loss etc. She often complained that it was too hot or it was too cold, or the sun was too bright or the overcast days made her eyes hurt. We went from doctor to doctor trying to figure out what was wrong. I sometimes thought she might be faking it because it seemed like it was always something wrong – how can one person have that many issues and they weren’t even related (Or at least I thought that). She seemed worse in the mornings and on school days so it was easy to think that she didn’t like school. She loved having people over to our house but didn’t go over to others as much. I feel so bad that we couldn’t have figured this out sooner – before she has gotten even worse. It is hard for her to sit up right now. She was a competitive cheerleader – she was active and very social. She loves kids so much and has wanted to be a teacher since she was a baby! She has quit cheer because she just didn’t have the energy to continue and she felt dizzy most of the time and didn’t want to tumble because of this. I just thought she had a mental block. She is able to intern two days a week in a Kindergarten class and also works in a day care a few days a week – she is unable to do that right now. While all her friends are out having fun – she is lying in bed…not because she wants to but because she can’t do anything else.

We found out about POTS because her cousin was also diagnosed with it. I really didn’t understand what it was and it frankly sounded so weird. I didn’t understand what she was going through or her family, especially her mom. When I saw her – she looked fine. It makes you think maybe they are faking it; because on good days – they do look good! I’ve learned it is not when they are sick that they are faking – it is on the days that they are “well” that they really are faking it. Katy’s cousin went to many doctors and finally found a specialist for POTS and that is when she started treatments. She was also active and on the dance team at school, but now she is bedridden most days and receives homebound school. I never connected Katy’s issues to the same illness; until Katy’s aunt posted on Facebook about Dysautonomia. I started reading the symptoms and I knew then; before the doctor’s diagnosis that Dysautonomia is what Katy had. We did make an appointment and that was her diagnosis.
So what in the world is Dysautonomia? “Dysautonomia is an umbrella term used to describe several different medical conditions that cause a malfunction of the Autonomic Nervous System. The Autonomic Nervous System controls the “automatic” functions of the body that we do not consciously think about, such as heart rate, blood pressure, digestion, dilation and constriction of the pupils of the eye, kidney function, and temperature control. People living with various forms of dysautonomia have trouble regulating these systems, which can result in lightheadedness, fainting, unstable blood pressure, abnormal heart rates, malnutrition, and in severe cases, death.” Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS) – estimated to impact 1 out of 100 teenagers and a total of 500,000 to 3,000,000 Americans. POTS can cause lightheadness, fainting, tachycardia, chest pains, and shortness of breath, GI upset, shaking, exercise intolerance, temperature sensitivity and more. While POTS predominantly impacts young women who look healthy on the outside, researchers compare the disability seen in POTS to the disability seen in conditions like COPD and congestive heart failure. For more information – please go to
We have just started this journey and the trip may be tough and we will need lots of support! Katy has started taking beta blockers to slow her heart rate, and minerals to help her sleep better. She already takes a variety of other medicines. One of her other treatments is to drink lots of water, and take salt! Yes – she eats straight table salt! It is often recommended to increase both fluid and salt intake in order to increase blood volume, which is typically low in POTS patients. This has proven to be particularly helpful in patients with blood pooling, hypovolemia, or hypotension. Also Katy has to do leg exercises before getting out of bed. These exercises help get the blood flowing in her body and not just pooled up in her legs. Normally, that is why she was getting so dizzy and nauseous in the morning when she would get up. There are so many other things that she has had to make adjustments with and we are still struggling through them. Now she feels complete exhaustion and she hasn’t even had any good days lately. Hopefully the medicine will get regulated and we will see improvements!
Please keep her and all those with chronic illness in your prayers. Also say a special prayer for caregivers – it is so hard seeing your loved ones have such a hard time. I pray for others to have understanding about these kind of issues and I pray for awareness. I am sure there are so many that may not even know that this could be what all those crazy symptoms are and that you can connect to a doctor and to treatment. I am sure I will be writing more – I have researched, googled, started Pinterest Board sharing as much as I can. Learn more about this illness and please share with me and others!


Many Blessings,